but that ask reminded me of this pynch fake dating au i was determined to write but probably never will where ronan’s like “adam pretend to date me to piss off my brother lol” and then Fake Dating Shenanigans that abundantly lack self awareness until finally it gets to the part where declan’s like in town and ronan’s like “hey you know adam, he’s my boyfriend now HA” and declan’s like… pissed and pulls ronan aside and ronan’s thinking haha got him until declan says “i know exactly what you’re doing here”
and ronan’s like wait what we’ve been here 2 seconds how the fuck can he tell this is a fake relationship “you think i didn’t already know that you and adam were together???? and now you’re just telling me this here because you apparently think i’m some kind of bigot and want me to react badly” and ronan’s like “WAIT back up wtf do you mean you already knew me and adam were together?” “i’m not an idiot ronan i’ve seen the way you two look at each other. i’ve known that for months”
and then declan keeps talking about how he’s upset ronan assumed he was going to be a homophobe and ronan’s vaguely aware that this is probably an important conversation but also now everything is rearranging itself in his mind because him and adam have been fake dating for A WEEK TOPS and how has he been looking at adam? wait. holy fuck. and then he’s like “uh yeah i’ll talk to you about this later. glad you’re not a homophobe. bye” while declan is still mid sentence and runs off to have his big rom com confession to adam
I share these ancient teenage drafts with the world only in hopes that other aspiring writers will learn from how terrible a writer I was when I began. As we all are. And in the hopes that anyone reading this post as the first introduction to my writing figures out that I have improved in the last fifteen years.
The guide to the name differences in the old drafts:
Sean = Ronan
Adam = Noah
Secret = Orphan Girl
Scott = Declan
Jackie = a Lynch sister who got deleted
Here’s a bit about when Ronan finds Niall Lynch’s journal:
Yes, Sean/ Ronan, we know, and no, you’re not the only one:
Here is Gansey as an old man with Knowledge:
A draft where Sean discovers he is a dream thief:
And a draft where Gansey has gotten theoretically younger in body but is still basically an old person. Also, Glendower was actually Llewellyn who was actually the Wild Hunt. Enjoy.
The Raven Cycle was a series that I picked up and put down and retooled many times between 15-19, and even though I wrote other terrible novels at the time, this one, more than any of the others, reflected my current interests and desires and fears and inability to avoid italics.
bullshit central 